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Hey!! *insert sarcasm* Thanks for the prompt update *end sarcasm* lolz. Yeah, yeah.. I know.. I apologize.. I meant to post somethin' alot sooner, but I've been goin' thru a tough spot in my lyfe ryte now, and just haven't had the tyme to write/update the site. However, I decided to confront alot of my problemz and leave the rest in God'z handz.. I'm still not 100% "recovered", but I'm definitely on my way.. What kinda' "problemz"? I guess I wouldn't classify them as "problemz", more like "needs" and "wants".. I need a job.. I haven't worked since December, other than the "thing" I had to do for those people.. That'z not reely a job, more lyke a part-time hustle.. So that doesn't reely count.. Once I get a job, I can get what I want, which is a digital camera.. Once I get my camera, I can get started on what I reely want to do.. My photography.. Is that all..? Sounds feasible..


Not reely.. I also want to fynd someone that I can be genuinely happy with.. I've been out of a relationship for almost 6 months now, if not longer.. and as much as I enjoy the freedom of the single life.. Oddly enough, I miss the feeling of having that one special someone that no one else measures up to.. I talked to my ex last nyte about the possibility of us trying to work out our differences, but she isn't ready to go back to the way thingz were, and to be honest.. I don't blame her.. I didn't treat her the best towards the end of our relationship, but I can honestly say that I have learned from the past, and grown alot since then.. I didn't reely expect her to be lyke, "Oh okay.. Let's do it!", so it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.. I just wanted to put it out there, just so I knew for sure before I moved on with my lyfe.. And now I can..


I watched this preacher on TV last night, named Joel Osteen. His sermon was entitled "Have Realistic Expectations in Your Relationships". I recommend any and everyone ever planning to get married or anyone in a serious relationship, to go to his site and download it, if you have the time.. I'm single and it helped me! lolz. It just put alot of things in perspective, when it comez to being in a relationship and making it work with your partner.. His sermon [and a few outrageous dreamz..] iz what reely gave me the motivation to talk to my ex about our past, and see what would be the best for us to do.. Even though thingz didn't work out the way I probably would have liked them to, at least I got the opportunity to get thingz off my chest that I kept bottled up for quite some time.. I learned from his sermon, that you'll never find someone that is "perfect" for you.. Everyone has their faults, but itz the person whose good qualities outweigh their bad, that you want to hold onto.. In my eyes, KES'z [my ex] good qualities outweigh her bad, and its my responsibility to overlook the bad, and not let that influence my opinion about her overall character.. He also said that God has a way of putting us together with someone totally opposite of ourselves.. She'z kinda shy, whereas I'm alot more outgoing.. She worriez alot more about what otherz thynk, whereas I could care less.. She kept me young and motivated, and I kept her grounded and less naive to reality.. lolz. And that'z exactly why we were brought together.. To help one another improve in areas where we were lacking.. I kinda wish I would have seen his broadcast sooner, but hindsight iz always 20:20.. Iz it not? :)


Nevertheless, I woke up this morning feeling reely good about myself [don't ask me why.. I just did! lolz.], almost refreshingly new.. I've been having some reely detailed dreamz lately, and last night I dreamed about KES again [for lyke the 3rd consecutive dream sequence! She alwayz said she'd stalk me in my dreamz if we ever broke apart.. lolz!], but this tyme it wasn't as dramatic and nightmarish as before.. I was at a cafe' or a diner somewhere, and she walked in with this guy.. They sat down to eat, and as I stood up to leave, someone walked to my table and asked "is this seat taken?", kinda' lyke they do in the movies, ya know? Anyway, there were plenty of seatz available, but she insisted on sitting at my table.. She was "dreamy" *no pun intended*, so I agreed to sit with her while she ate.. Her food selection was initially disgusting to the naked eye.. consisting of all the foodz I don't fukk wit.. [cheese, mayo, cream of somethin' nasty.. all that!] She made taste just a little of each, and after trying it.. I realized it wasn't that bad.. I just never actually gave it a chance.. [Now, keep in mynd.. this was a dream.. Don't thynk I'm a cheesy, mayo and cream eatin' katt now.. Bringin' cheese broccoli and cream of mushroom soup to my house.. Just a dream.. k? :)] I don't know who she was, which makez the dream reely interesting to me.. But I got the message.. As much as I love and care for KES, I reely gotta let her go.. There iz someone for everyone, and if she was truly meant for me, we would be.. She was placed in my lyfe for a reason, and vice versa.. We learned so much from one another and she'll always have a special place in my heart.. My job now iz not to convince her that we should try again, but acknowledge the fact that she has to move on.. and so do I.. As happy as we were together, I can fynd happiness with someone else.. Can't I? The gyrl of my dream didn't have an identity for a reason.. My job now is to figure out who she is.. or go back to sleep.. lolz. Yeah, or go back to sleep! lolz..


I thynk that was a pretty decent entry, don't ya thynk.. Made up for a little lost time.. I'll definitely keep everyone updated as new information becomez available.. :) Oh, as for the "thing".. I did alot better the last tyme I went, so hopefully I'll be invited back again.. Wish me luck!! As for the rest of my wants and needs.. We shall see.. The Lord workz in mysterious wayz.. Dreamz too!! :)


Anyway, my ride iz here.. Impatiently waiting.. lolz. Gotta go! [Yeah, add the car situation to the "need" list.. lolz!]


Have a great day everyone, and thankz for reading!
LataZ!
[rcZ]


P.S. - Check out Joel Osteen'z website if you can! :)

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